The nation's grief surfaced on Saturday, when former President
Ronald Reagan finally succumbed to Alzheimer's disease after a 10-year battle.
But in millions of individual American homes dealing with a similar fate, it
often starts long before a death.
Every time NFL wide receiver Terrell Owens steps onto the football field, his mind turns to the woman he credits with getting him there: his grandmother. She took him in when he was a young boy and raised him. What breaks his heart is that she will never know how far he's come.
Alice Black was diagnosed with Alzheimer's disease 14 years ago, during Owens' first NFL season. Now, she no longer knows her grandson. "The disease has robbed her of her memories," says Owens, who plays for the Cincinnati...
It may come with the initial diagnosis -- of multiple
sclerosis, ALS, cancer, Parkinson's, Alzheimer's, or other chronic,
debilitating conditions. Or when a once-vibrant loved one can't recall a
treasured memory, move without difficulty, or even go to the bathroom. As their
withering continues, over days or decades, this grief often intensifies.
"As a family caregiver, you are grieving throughout the
entire process, not only with the death of your loved one," says Suzanne
Mintz, president and co-founder of the National Family
Caregivers Association, who cares for her MS-afflicted husband and whose father
also died from Alzheimer's five years ago. "You grieve with each loss --
each time they go down a notch, with each reminder of what was and what it has
During the course of a chronic illness, caregivers typically
experience a range of emotions: Hopelessness. Stress. Guilt. Sadness. Anger.
A Range of Feelings
"Grief is a reaction to a loss, but it can be -- and with
caregivers grief often is -- a multifaceted reaction," says Kenneth Doka,
PhD, MDiv, professor of gerontology at the Graduate School of the College of
New Rochelle and the author of 17 books on grief, including the new Living
with Grief: Alzheimer's Disease.
"We tend to associate grief with strictly negative
emotions, but it's much wider than that," he tells WebMD. "We know that
with the death, there's often relief that the suffering has ended. But there
can also be strong feelings of fulfillment. Right now, Nancy Reagan may be
saying, 'I got through this. I was by his side, even when he didn't know I was
by his side.'"
These conflicting emotions can play havoc with an already
stressed and vulnerable psyche, which may explain why nearly one in three
caregivers meets the medical diagnosis for depression, according to a study
last year in the American Journal of Geriatric Psychiatry.