The Loss Of Parents
'I felt abandoned'
Feb. 5, 2001 -- Increasing numbers of adults are experiencing
the saddest and most devastating rite of passage: The death of their
With steadily increasing life spans, it's easy for children,
even grown ones, to think they will always enjoy their parents' protection.
Little research has been done on the impact that the loss of parents has on
grown children. But it's an issue that is commanding new interest -- and
spawning many yet-to-be-published research papers -- as the nation's estimated
77 million baby boomers face harsh reality. Anecdotal evidence suggests they
are ill-prepared to cope.
Like many adults with supportive parents, Paul Wood, a
successful public relations executive, shuttling between high-tech clients in
Hong Kong and Los Angeles, believed his parents always would be there for him.
When his mother and then his father died in the mid-1990s, he was shattered.
Until then, he had believed his life was under control.
That was before he spent nearly a year crying himself to sleep.
He was depressed and unable to connect with family and friends. "I felt
totally abandoned," says Wood, 37. "I felt that I was space walking
without a rope, just floating out there in space. It's impossible to describe
or imagine if you haven't been through the experience."
While it may be the natural order of things for parents to die
before their children, "the baby boom generation is unwilling to accept the
inevitability of death," says Lois Akner, a New York City social worker who
since 1984 has been conducting workshops on parental loss. "I have clients
all the time who say, "If my mother dies,' and I say, 'What do you mean,
Victoria Secunda, author of Losing Your Parents, Finding
Yourself (Hyperion), says, "When your parents die, you lose your
emotional foxhole. You no longer have the opportunity to go home when you lose
your job or your boyfriend dumps you."
In mourning the death of parents, baby boomers confront other
life changes as well. Parents are curators of the past who keep children
connected with siblings, distant relatives, and the neighborhoods where they
grew up. If the parent-child relationships have been difficult, the hope that
they may improve is lost forever.Â More troubling still, baby boomers must
confront their own mortality.
"It's like getting a boarding pass to death," says
Michael Leming, PhD, a sociologist at St. Olaf College in Northfield, Minn.
"You realize that your flight will be the next to take off."
The good news is that, once the grieving period begins to fade,
many boomers report an unexpected freedom: The ability to pursue their own
dreams without the need to seek parental approval. Audrey Gordon, PhD, an
assistant professor at the University of Illinois at Carbondale and an expert
in grief, says that despite her professional expertise, she was overwhelmed by
loss and regret when her parents died. But a year later, she realized she was
free to plan her life in a way that previously was impossible.