Body Transformed
A Journey of Surgical Weight Loss

In the Waiting Line
June 20, 2004

It seems like surgery is all I can think about. I'm not afraid of the procedure at all. What I'm focusing on now is the way this process will change my life.

As I lie in bed at night feeling hot and uncomfortable, I can feel the skin from my double chin lying on my chest. My neck is swallowed up in the whole mess. It's no wonder I have sleep apnea. I feel like I'm drowning in fat.

I can't help noticing how my weight hinders me. I'm very slow and cautious walking down stairs. I feel off balance trying to carry a basket of laundry up or down. Lately I've been asking Ed to do it because I'm afraid I'll fall.

I actually took a bath last week. For years I've been a "shower-only" kind of gal. Not by choice, but because getting up and down from the tub is difficult and potentially dangerous. A slip-and-fall accident in the tub is not something I'm interested in dealing with.

So lately it seems like thoughts of "this will be so much easier after I have surgery" are in my head constantly. I hope I'm not setting myself up with unrealistic expectations.

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Making the Decision

07/14/01: Making the Decision

08/23/01: Leaving Bill

09/18/01: No Job

09/20/01: Just That Quick

The Family and Friends Plan

09/19/02: Why Not Me?

12/26/02: Comparisons

03/22/03: Jumping on the Bandwagon

05/20/03: How I Met Ed

08/18/03: The Big Squeeze

11/06/03: New Body, New Husband

Seeking Approval

02/04/04: Time to Get Approved

03/12/04: Journey Begins

04/26/04: I'm Approved

06/13/04: Pre-Op Testing

06/20/04: In the Waiting Line

Making the Cut

07/10/04: Saying Goodbye

07/11/04: Sleepless Night

07/15/04: The Surgery

Strange Changes

07/22/04: Yummy Water

07/30/04: Smaller Tummy

08/16/04: 37 Pounds Down

09/07/04: My First 50 Pounds

10/31/04: Different Food, Same Love

New Body Countdown

11/07/04: 67 Down and Counting

11/12/04: Melting Away - 73 down

11/20/04: Breaking 200

11/26/04: Giving Thanks - 83 pounds

Holiday Madness

12/08/04: Slowing Down

12/15/04: Fortune 100, and Counting

12/27/04: Weight GAIN?

Quiet Rewards

01/06/05: Jeans Older Than My Kids

01/19/05: No Lap, But I'll Take the Luxury

01/28/05: A Most Unusual Revelation

02/07/05: Body and Sole

02/14/05: Flowers in the Mirror

Ready for Summer

03/31/05: Batwings and Tummy-Tucks

A New Life

12/15/05: Finally