The Fertility Diaries: 3 Friends, 3 Paths to Pregnancy
Another Disappointment continued...
All of this was racing through Jody's mind on December 13, when she joined a
group of Carrie's work friends for a baby shower (which Jenny had to miss for a
church event). Instead of buying gifts for Carrie, Jody made them: handcrafted
baby announcements, intricately decorated with baby feet, with quotes like
"sweet baby," "welcome," "precious," and "new
arrival," and a place for Carrie to attach a newborn picture. "I make
all my own cards, so I thought this would be special for her," says Jody.
Carrie was surprised — and touched — by Jody's thoughtful gift. "The cards
are so beautiful, and so personal," she says. "I know how much time she
put into making them, and that means a lot."
Jody has been to more than one baby shower since her miscarriage, and these
gatherings have often been painful and awkward. "We don't talk about our
struggles to have a baby with our whole family, and so at family showers,
everyone always wants to know, 'So, when are you going to have kids?'" she
says. "I'm so tired of answering that question, or avoiding it."
But Carrie's shower was more of a relief — many of the women there didn't
have children yet, and the talk wasn't all about babies. "I didn't know
anyone except Carrie, and no one was asking me those kinds of questions,"
says Jody. "I could just enjoy it and talk to people, watch Carrie open her
presents, and be happy for her."
Jody has also kept a strong, positive attitude by being very realistic about
Jody: Scotty and I have set a deadline for ourselves. If we're not
pregnant after two cycles of IVF, we're going to take a break and then talk
about adoption. I'm simply not going to let my life be engulfed by this. I
don't think that I could keep taking all of these medications and doing this to
my body over and over. I can't imagine just trying and trying and trying.
There's got to be a point where you stop.