The Fertility Diaries: When a Friend Is Pregnant — and You're Not
"I was devastated. Talking to Scott helped to ground me. He said that if
something was going to go wrong, it was better that it happened when it did,
instead of after eight months of pregnancy. I realized he was right. But it
took us a long time to get pregnant, and I do get sad sometimes when I see
people who are due at the same time I would have been -- even Carrie."
No one could have been more heartbroken for Jody than Jenny and Carrie --
especially Carrie, who had hoped to go through all the milestones of pregnancy
together with her dear friend.
Carrie: "As the one who hasn't struggled with fertility, I do often feel
guilty. I certainly don't deserve to be pregnant any more than Jody. And why
does Jenny have to go through this twice to get a healthy newborn she can hold
in her arms longer than three days? But I've learned so much about both of them
and what they go through. They have my utmost respect. And they don't feel
sorry for themselves at all."
Jody and her husband knew they'd need help to try again. Thanks to a fateful
misdialed phone number, they got that help faster than they expected.
Jody: "Back when we first went on the Clomid, we'd made an appointment
to see the reproductive endocrinologist in June, because I knew it would be
hard to get in. When I got pregnant, I called him to cancel but couldn't get
through...I'd dialed the wrong area code. It's like fate made sure that
appointment didn't get canceled.
"We couldn't believe what this doctor told us. Instead of the minor
sperm abnormality our first doctor described, we found out that 98 percent of
them were abnormal. And they told me that I have Factor V Leiden, a
blood-clotting disorder. It's a big risk for complications in pregnancy and was
probably the reason I'd miscarried, the endocrinologist said. Once I did get
pregnant, I'd have to give myself shots twice a day to help prevent another
miscarriage. Clearly, there was a lot more wrong with us, and Clomid was not
the answer. So we decided to try intrauterine insemination. I'll take
medication to stimulate my egg production, and then they use a catheter to
insert my husband's sperm right when I'm ovulating.