Dating With Herpes
One woman's story.
I held off on sex for as long as I could, but it got more and more
difficult. One day, my new beau reassured me, "I'm disease-free, I just got
tested. You have nothing to worry about."
I appreciated his honesty and knew I had to tell him that he was the one who
had something to worry about.
Soon, my secret was out. I explained that I had herpes, and that was why I
was being so cautious. I told him that to my knowledge I had never spread the
virus to anyone else, and that I was very careful. I had always insisted on
using condoms, which can reduce the risk of transmission. My
selling point, however, was telling him that approximately one in four people
has herpes and, statistically speaking, he undoubtedly had slept with someone
who had herpes. He said he would know if he had been with someone who had
"How?" I asked.
He thought about that for a minute and then realized he might not know. In
the end, instead of rejecting me, he chose to continue our relationship. What a
relief. But after we had sex, he would always wash himself like a doctor
scrubbing down for an operation. I could hardly blame him, but it wreaked havoc
on my self-esteem. Since he was disease-free, he refused to wear condoms,
instead choosing the scrub-down -- something that would do nothing to prevent
That relationship eventually came to an end, leaving me worried yet again
about getting back in the dating game. Then, while surfing the Web for
information on the latest herpes medication, I stumbled across a
web site for people with herpes.
Finding Help and Support
There are dozens of web sites that provide online support and information
for people with herpes. Many feature chat rooms, bulletin boards, treatment
information, personal ads, and social groups around the world. A friend of mine
had recently married a guy she met on the Web -- proving that not every
Internet date is a psycho -- so I gave it a try.
I met dozens of electronic pen pals and eventually went on several dates. It
was a relief not to worry about when to bring up my medical history, and to
bond with a guy over asymptomatic shedding instead of having to explain it.
The whole experience made me more comfortable with the fact that I have
herpes and gave me the confidence to begin dating again. It was as if I had
just re-entered mainstream society. Not everyone with herpes has to date
someone infected with the virus to find true love, but in my case, it
Mr. Right Online
Eventually, I met a man online who lived only three miles from me. We
discovered we had numerous mutual friends. Given the circumstances, it was
surprising that we hooked up on the Web and not at a neighborhood barbecue.
Soon we will be married, and more than 100 family members and friends are
invited to join our celebration. Most have no idea how we really met, but it's
not important. Herpes brought us together, but it's the love, laughter, and
good times that keep us close.
Ann Smith is a pseudonym for a journalist living in California.