Dec. 4, 2000 -- At work, Deborah Zee, 45, picks and chooses whom to speak to and for how long. She never attends loud concerts, and when she looks at a menu in a restaurant, she decides what to order based not on what she wants to eat, but "how much I want to suffer."
Zee, like more than 10 million Americans, most of whom are women, suffers from temporomandibular disorder (TMD), a collection of medical and dental conditions that affect primarily the temporomandibular -- or jaw -- joint and surrounding muscles, nerves, and tendons. TMJ, an older name for the disorder, now usually refers only to a disease or disorder of the joint itself.
By Ann Hodgman
One woman's diary
I said to my daughter, "You know what I just can't stand about this
book? The long passages with no dialogue." -
She paused, then said, "Mom, are there any books you like
Now it was my turn to pause. How could she ask that, when everyone knows how
much I love to read? But then again, when had I last complimented a book — even
one I admired? Come to think of it, how often did I say anything without a
negative twist? I don't want my tombstone...
Unlike other joints in the body, the jaw moves up and down, forward and backward, and from side to side. It enables us to chew, talk, yawn -- even kiss. Until one day, it doesn't -- or at least not without pain.
For Zee, the pain that began in her 20s and worsened until it became what she describes as "your worst headache, earache, and toothache combined," means she no longer indulges in long conversations or submarine sandwiches. Even noise is a problem: it sparks tinnitis, or ringing in the ears.
Then one day, a drunken driver rear-ended the car she was driving, and her head slammed into the steering wheel. After the accident, the pain she'd suffered for years became unbearable. An MRI showed that the soft disc, a shock absorber of sorts, that lies between the temporal bone at the side of the head and the condyles, the rounded ends of the lower jaw, had been knocked out of place and torn. Surgery to repair the damage failed, and two years ago Zee received an artificial joint implant in her jaw.
On the whole, she says, her quality of life has improved, thanks in large part to a new arthritis drug, Vioxx. But on bad days, the inflammation can be terrible, causing her face to bulge out and her eyes to swell shut.