Living With Anorexia: Lizzy
A teen turned to dieting as a way of dealing with strong emotions, and later started her own anorexia-focused web site.
Her Own Anorexia Web Site continued...
But my web site is about both sides. I want people to read the sections
about how it's not all fun and games. Anorexia is not just being skinny: It's
physical and emotional hell. I don't want people to think it's all so simple
and so light. It's not glamorous.
In October 2003, I finally reached double digits on the scale, and I was
just miserable all the time. I looked in the mirror and I didn't see anything
different from when I was 148 and first started to diet.
I knew then that if I didn't get help soon, it would never get any better.
After I got a therapist, she recommended medical treatment, and in March 2004,
at my lowest weight of 88, I was put in the hospital for eight days. That
wasn't bad compared to some of the girls who were on bed rest for a month, but
it still sucked.
I also have a nutritionist, and she's taught me that food is something that
you can't just ignore, that there are certain things your body needs. It's
helped to learn what starvation does to your organs.
I was also in family therapy for awhile, and that helped me to learn to talk
about things instead of abusing my body to express myself. But my parents and I
haven't really talked about it in a long time. I think their point of view is
that everything's fine because I don't tell them otherwise. But it's not.
I don't know if it's possible to get past my anorexia completely. It seems
like I've given a good portion of my life to it, and even if I stop restricting
and take down my web site, I don't know if I'll ever be completely happy with
the way I look.
Tips for Spotting Anorexia
The more people know about the symptoms and the warning signs, the better, I
think. If parents had more education about the symptoms of eating disorders and
what to look for in their kids, that could help and get a lot of kids the
treatment they need before they're in a desperate situation.