My name is Maurice Bernard. I'm an actor on General Hospital and I have bipolar disorder. I'm going to tell you what it feels like when you're having a bipolar breakdown.
It feels like somebody injected you with the greatest feeling in the world and you're high as a kite. The problem is you can't come down, but initially for me, it was like grandiose.
I can conquer the world. I'll buy a Maserati. I don't care. If you want it, you want it. Good. Let's go. That's the feeling of it.
The problem is when you're so high you got to come down eventually.
For me, if I have to say what a warning sign is, not sleeping, very emotional, crying for no reason, because if you're not sleeping and you're crying, there's something off there.
Sonny Corinthos is a character I played. He's a very grandiose mobster.
What's similar with Sonny and when I've had my breakdowns is the rage that Sonny carries inside.
What do you think.
Take that off, now!
I believe the fact that I know I can come in, I get up in the morning, I box or I run and then I go to work, that kind of structure is excellent for me.
Boxing for me has been great for my disorder because it's another release, but it's a physical release and I started about 11 years ago. It's been a God sent. I could do it everyday if I could.
The thing about my recovery is I want help.
For me, the importance of family and friends, people you work with, supporting you when you go through things like I have, I couldn't do it. I could not do it alone.
There's no way. I truly needed my mother and my father and my wife, my friends because I just couldn't have done it by myself, so it's incredibly important to have that support.
For all those people who suffered from depression or bipolar, any mental illness and feeling like you can't go on,
that there is no hope that, why even live. Trust me, If I did it at that point, I think any -- I truly believe anybody can.