A Conversation With a Columbine Survivor
Marjorie Lindholm on Life After Columbine and Advice in the Wake of School Shootings
What helped you heal when you were going through it? I know it's a journey.
Not a lot did. I dropped out of high school and at that time, my parents
divorced, so I didn't have a whole bunch of support at home at all. And then it
took five years for me to tell my mom where I was [in the school when the
Columbine shootings happened]. But after that point, since she's a counselor,
she had mentioned that journaling helps, and so I started to that, because I
couldn't talk about it yet. But writing about it was different and I was able
to do it. ... And then eventually, I was able to talk about it. And
that's kind of where that book came from. And now, when I do interviews, it
just kind of lets me release it more and more. And I think that it's always ...
a process and it's still going to be a lot more years till I'm at the point
where I can really live with it every day and not be upset.
Are there things that you do on a day when a school shooting happens or an anniversary day -- things you do to take care of yourself?
Absolutely. I really think on those days, you do need to find comfort in
something. My thing is ice cream, of course, like most females (laughs).
Any flavor in particular?
Oh, cookies and cream, for sure. (laughs) I love it. But I just treat
myself. Even after the shootings, for, like, six months solid, all I ate were
Peppermint Patties and Mountain Dew. And although it's unhealthy, to an average
person, it mentally got me through it, and that's what mattered. Because so
many of my friends at that time got into drug use or alcohol use or even killed
themselves. And it's easy to do that when you go through something so traumatic
at such a young age when you're just not prepared. Anything you can do to keep
yourself still on track I think is so good. So during my harder days or the
anniversaries or even when another shooting happens ... you know, my thing's
food. (laughs) So I just do that, the ice cream, and maybe take myself to a
movie or call a friend. But definitely, I don't push myself those days.